Saya tidak sengaja dapat lagu ini 1-2 minggu lalu waktu browsing youtube. Ketika dengar pertama kali melodi dan liriknya nya terasa sangat kuat, heart-breaking tapi juga heart- healing secara bersamaan (seperti comment salah satu orang di youtube). 

Membawa saya flashback ke masa-masa beberapa bulan lalu waktu nemenin alm. Mama berjuang di RS maupun sesudahnya di rumah melawan cancer nya. Pujian ini kaya pas banget untuk gambarin apa yang kami berdua rasakan saat-saat itu. 

Saya saat itu ga bisa banyak bicara krn bingung juga jelasin apa yg dirasakan. Mama juga demikian, ga bisa banyak bicara krn nahan sakitnya. We both are strugling, my mom with her physical pain, while me with my faith & hope.

Tapi suatu ketika saat saya melihat matanya Mama, kami seperti saling menguatkan. Kami tahu bahwa kami akan bisa melalui ini, whatever the result.

Ketika akhirnya alm. Mama dipanggil Tuhan dan kami harus berpisah dulu, perasaan saya mungkin seperti yg saya bilang di atas, heart-broken but also heart-healed at the same time.

Yang jelas buat kami, seperti yang kami yakini, Tuhan lah yang akhirnya mampu membawa kami melalui semuanya. 

And this song somehow seems to be a perfect soundtrack to depicts those moments. :)

May this song be a blessing to you too.

Even When It Hurts (Praise Song)"

Take this fainted heart
Take these tainted hands
Wash me in Your love
Come like grace again

Even when my strength is lost
I'll praise You
Even when I have no song
I'll praise You
Even when it's hard to find the words
Louder then I'll sing Your praise

I will only sing Your praise
I will only sing Your praise
I will only sing Your praise

Take this mountain weight
Take these ocean tears
Hold me through the trial
Come like hope again

Even when the fight seems lost
I'll praise You
Even when it hurts like hell
I'll praise You
Even when it makes no sense to sing
Louder then I'll sing Your praise

I will only sing Your praise
I will only sing Your praise
I will only sing Your praise

And my heart burns only for You
You are all You are all I want
And my soul waits only for You
And I will sing till the morning has come

Lord my heart burns only for You
You are all You are all I want
And my soul waits only for You
And I will sing till the miracle comes

I will only sing Your praise
I will only sing Your praise
I will only sing Your praise

Even when the morning comes
I'll praise You
Even when the fight is won
I'll praise You
Even when my time on earth is done
Louder then I'll sing your praise

I will only sing Your praise